HSBN Scholarship Essay Entry: David Moorhead
David Moorhead, #9, from the Killian Cougars, is a pitcher that graduates with the class of 2020. David had a 3.00 ERA when his season was cut short. He gave us some insight into what the players at Killian and in the 305 have been going through the past few months.
Essay:
Saudade – that is one way to explain the way I feel. I miss it. I miss my team. I miss seeing them everyday after school. I miss taking the field with them at 3:30. I miss seeing my parents and friends in the stands.
I started playing with my high school in the seventh grade. By the end of my senior year, I would have played for a total of six years. I was able to create special bonds that I will forever remember. One that I will always hold dearest to my heart is with my catcher, Romeo Sanabria. We started playing at the same time and since then, we have been inseparable. We bought into the Killian culture and took it in as our own. We were able to spread it throughout our team and school, and help create something special. Baseball at Killian is stronger than it ever will be.
Romeo and I have always looked up to our senior year, it would be our golden year. The year we won it all, and took over the state (which we couldn’t do in our junior year). We were hungry. We wanted a championship more than ever. We saw it as an opportunity to go out with a bang. A way to finish off our Killian tenure as the first senior class to win a state championship, something that we could give back to our school.
Our team started off hot, going 7-3 to finish our season (not to mention that we were on a six game win streak). Romeo and I believed that it was the year we had dreamed of since our days as middle schoolers.
Unfortunately, our season took an unexpected turn for the worse. We had never envisioned that the “golden year” would be stripped away from us as if we were playing football. Never once throughout the six years did I think that a foreign foe by the name of “Covid-19” would take everything away from us.
The moment I was told about the suspension of our “golden year”, I broke out in tears. I didn’t know what I was feeling, it was a strong mixture of rage, sadness, anger, and loneliness. I felt lost. I began to think, “Is it really over?”
I vividly remember celebrating on New Year’s after the clock hit twelve and everybody was shouting “Happy New Year!” The first thing I did was cry. Cry like there was no tomorrow. I couldn’t believe that the year I never imagined getting to was finally here. I remember just sitting on the floor with my teammates, crying together.
Fast forward to March 13, 2020, when we were sitting in a circle out in center field, crying together. Even today, it doesn’t feel as real as it is. I have become numb to the whole thing. I’m numb to the fact that I will never wear a Killian jersey ever again. I’m numb to the fact that I will never get to pitch on the mound again. I’m numb to the fact that I will never be able to hold up the state championship trophy with Romeo. I’m numb to the fact that I will never have a Senior day.I’m numb to the fact that “golden year” is gone. Forever.
I’m numb without baseball. I love you Killian, and I will always bleed Green and Gold.
I will hold this time in my career dear to my heart. I will forever remember this moment for the rest of my life. Although this isn’t what I expected of my senior year, I want to use this as fuel for the rest of my life.
I want to carry this into whatever passion I intend to pursue. If there is one positive thing I can take from this pandemic, it is to never take anything for granted. Enjoy and appreciate every moment you have with your loved ones or passion you have, because at any moment it can be taken away.
Saudade – I hope to never feel this again.
Editors Note: Seniors wanting to enter the competition, follow the link below:
HSBN Senior Essay Scholarship Competition